Friday, August 31, 2001

wow, my very first blog entry... everyone seems to have one these days and im ashamed to say that i too have jumped on the proverbial band-wagon...

i'm not sure how many people will eventually read this, and i'm not sure how interesting this will be... more than likely, this site will turn out to be boring as hell... i can imagine myself posting several times a day about absolutely nothing at all, but that's okay... this site isn't meant to entertain... it's purpose is simply to be my own outlet for whatever happens to be cluttering my brain at the present moment

today, it's romance novels... i have very little to do during the day and have found that romance novels are actually quite a good way to pass the time... they take little effort to read, there's no hidden message and you always know what's going to happen in the end... simple and predictable... i must admit that romance novels helped me through a very lonely period in my life, as sad as that may sound... it made me believe that "love" (the kind i read in those books) was truly possible and that it was only a matter of time before it was my turn... i thought that true love had to be nothing less than what i read in those novels... rather high standards for a 16 yr old girl, i admit... rather high standards, period... i guess i was just setting myself up for disappointment... and disappointed i was, in the end... but that's okay... people learn, people grow...

i'm only realising now how incredibly dumb some of the stuff written in those books is SO trite and SO contrived... you see, i'm in a relationship now... have been in one for almost two years... and it is NOT a fairy tale at all... we go through our ups and downs...